Crying

I don't know what is up with me lately but I just can't seem to stop crying. I have always been an emotional person, but this is way more than just emotional. It seems like everytime I turn around I'm crying...its only 9:00 a.m. and I have already cried twice today. I am not extremely unhappy or anything, it just seems like little things set me off. Maybe its the season, I love this time of year and I am enjoying it for the most part, but I think I have kept some feelings inside too long and now they are starting to bubble to the top. About 2 years ago my parents moved due to my father's work and I really thought that it didn't bother me that much, but now with Christmas approaching I realize that I miss them, especially my Mom alot more than I let on...they will be visiting in a week, but sometimes I just wish she was only five minutes away so we could just hang out like we used to. Then there's my brother who lives even farther away with his wife and son. I haven't seen him in about 2 years and that is what set me off today...a story about the Charlotte's web movie that I heard on the radio, and the memory of when my brother bought me that book with his own money, just to be nice. I miss him too...
I'm debating whether to include another thing that has set me off, but maybe it will help me to feel better. When I had my son almost five years ago I really thought that I would have one more child, I never thought that he would be my last baby. Although it is still possible that we could have another child, it is unlikely. The older the children get the harder it is to think of starting all over again...when I realized this the other day it was like a curtain of sadness came over me...how did the time go so fast, when did I miss the "right time" to have another baby. I know I am blessed to have the two wonderful children I have, it is just so sad to me to try to let go of the dream of one more. I guess I will just have to pray for God to help me through this.
I'm crying as a write this, so I guess that makes three times today...time to grab some more kleenex...